Pivot (n): a person, thing, or factor having a major or central role, function, or effect.
2012 will be a pivot year for me. I recognize it as such because I’ve had one before. In 1999 I was getting ready to separate from the Air Force and all I had been up to that point in my adult life was a pilot. I flew airplanes for a living and I never saw myself as anything else. As I sent out applications to the major airlines something just didn’t feel right, I honestly wasn’t interested in ‘driving a bus’ for the next 30 years. No matter how glamorous some folks made it sound, I just wasn’t that excited about being away from home 2-3 weeks a month and getting up for work at 3AM.
Almost on a lark I decided to see what my value might be as an Engineer. My major was Electrical Engineering but I had done nothing with it and my knowledge in that field was well over 10 years old. Who in their right mind would hire me? Since the airlines weren’t calling me I didn’t just test the waters, I went all in. I sent out resumes, contacted head hunters and went on a bunch of interviews. To my shock I was offered positions at two different companies, near what I was currently making as an Air Force Captain on flying status. Twelve years, multiple certifications and a graduate degree later I’ve caught up with my peers and I’m well established in my current career field.
Now 2012 is beginning…and something doesn’t feel right. A year ago I would have been content to continue qualifying for Boston and be happy if my legs kept holding up. Now I want more. This year I’ve read everything I could get my hands on regarding training, injury prevention and performance. I’ve PR’d at every distance I’ve run in 2011 and I don’t feel like I’m anywhere near plateauing. It’s absolutely crazy to think that at 47 I could do something meaningful with my running, but I can’t accept not trying.
I started writing this post with a totally different topic in mind but this just came out on its own. I need to either succeed in this or fail spectacularly. Risk is relative and failure doesn’t scare me anymore. It feels like its time to go all in…